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| Keep 'em guessing. |
| 04.20.06 (8:46 am) [edit] |
Keep 'em guessing.
Some things never change. People still ask for comments on the chat board. But.. is it me or do the jovial and often tasteless conversations not take place much anymore? A year ago, it was jumping throughout the day and people were hard pressed to keep up. Now, it looks a bit like a ghost town. But perhaps it is I who am the ghost. I wonder.. is the old guard not being replaced as used to be the case? Where is that group of bloggers who continually meet up and clown around for all of tBlog to see.. I'm sure the cycle continues, but with some notable changes, it seems. I wonder, if by doing away with pro status, that is, paid accounts, is there now no longer a distinction between what I'd term serious bloggers (people who can articulate themselves) and well, the rest of the angst ridden world? Curious thing, that.
I still wander over to the reads worth remembering. I visit the now silent pages of people long gone, one or two regretfully, some not so regretfully. Juniperflux (Flex!), TheJongleur and Andaloo continue to hold a place in my heart. Oh, the irony that TheJongleur is the only one of the three who continues to update. I never saw that coming. As for me, I write in my own space, and I don't mean 'my space.' As if that place is somehow better than this one. I'm in some little borrowed corner of nothingness, tucked away from prying eyes, for the most part anyway. It's better that way, for someone like myself, who is gregarious by nature and easily sucked into the social aspect of blogging. I no longer feel scattered. I'm writing more and more for myself and it shows. Nor am I picking fights online with pompous or ignorant people, the mentally sick and wounded, the desperately abandoned, and hopelessly self-unaware, etc. This place will continue to be ripe with them, along with every spam blog known to man. It could be a full time job, trodding through the less desirable.. sans pay, of course. I admit, it's still fun when people get their noses bent out of shape upon recognition.
I recently got back from a short jaunt through Ontario, Canada. Lovely place, if the city would leave the falls alone and let them be beautiful without interference. I met the future in-laws and extended family. Such unassuming people. It was enjoyable to be around them. I'm looking forward to a return trip.
My sister has continued her guilty silence since November. How proud she is, and how trapped, in her inability to apologize. And how quick she'd be to snap up the cause if she knew my thoughts were leading in this direction. But it's difficult to argue that I tried to move forward grudge-free. And she has ignored it. So be it.
As usual, life continues to hand out good and bad without preference or prejudice.
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posted by: thejongleur (reply)
post date: 04.21.06 (2:10 pm)
(Funnily enough, Miss Juniperflux may have placed a few thoughts here again.)
I feel an odd loyalty to this place.. so I still post here when I post elsewhere.
Beyond that.. I only read one or two. So I guess at least *some* things don't change.
ams
posted by: lindy (reply)
post date: 04.21.06 (5:33 pm)
reply to: thejongleur
Oh! Thank you for letting me know. I'll head over there and have a look-see. :)
I too feel a connection with this place, afterall, it's where I met the two of you.
posted by: Lurker (reply)
post date: 04.22.06 (10:13 pm)
Still proud and delusional, so I see.
posted by: lindy (reply)
post date: 04.23.06 (3:40 am)
Reply to:
Still not worth my time, so you demonstrate.
posted by: brogonzo (reply)
post date: 04.25.06 (6:45 pm)
"Nor am I picking fights online with pompous or ignorant people, the mentally sick and wounded, the desperately abandoned, and hopelessly self-unaware, etc."
Which category do you fall into?
As well as you write, you've relentlessly refused to admit to brokenness yourself.
Perhaps I haven't read closely enough, but that's certainly the vibe that emanates from posts like these.
posted by: lindy (reply)
post date: 04.26.06 (8:41 am)
Reply to: brogonzo
Well, hello, Ian. It comes as no surprise that this particular phrase evoked a response from you. Not to say that you are predictable, but rather if I had to guess, there'd be little else that would hold your interest, I dare say. I didn't know you were still around. I hope all is well with you and yours.
'Which category do you fall into?'
All of them. At times.
I'm afraid you give me too much credit in branding my lack of self-deprecation as relentless refusal to 'admit to brokenness' in myself. And I hesitate in even labeling this statement as proud, though I grant we all take from it what we understand. You may recall (or not) that there is a strange mixture of pride and humility in my expression, though, for me, one is much harder to come by than the other. Your own brand of pride has always been good at sniffing out mine. The descriptors referenced might as well be replaced with specific peoples' names here in tBlog, as they came into my head one by one while I picked my poison in describing them. As for 'posts like these,' hmm. If that is in reference to multiple posts with continuity in theme belonging to me, I openly admit, there is certainly a pattern to them. I haven't been sharing my innards with tBlog for some time. It just feels better to lay all that self-reflection elsewhere, away from so many uncaring eyes. Rest assured, you are correct, my pride is in tact, and I continue to check it in its proper place as needed. And I am sure there will come swings of contentment and alarm that will lend to my being included in the adjectives you seem to think me purposely ignoring in my own cause. I've always considered 'moderation' a dirty word, but it seems to be making its way into a few decisions of late, including what to share and what to keep to myself.
Cheers.
posted by: lindy (reply)
post date: 04.26.06 (3:15 pm)
Reply to: aliciarose
Hey you! You've been quiet lately. It *is* quite funny to be here again. Eh, once in a while, it is fun to remember all that went on here. Such a long time ago now. I like your new place. It does feel like a new chapter. Hope things are going alright with your wrists.. and the family situation.
posted by: FinalyFree (reply)
post date: 06.02.06 (11:43 pm)
You should come around more often, perhaps to 'spice' things up ;)
